About Writing The Lies
I am trying to be as honest as I can in this. With you. The blog is strictly about me saying what I have allways wanted to say; Confessing what I allways wanted to confess. And braging about everything I've allways wanted to brag about. Like any other blog on the world wide web.
But how do I get to be honest if I am writing a novel? In what way can I show a part of myself without revealing it all? It's easy to lie to someone else's face, I do that all the time. But it's harder to lie in printed texts, because when one lie one allways reveal a part of the truth, sometimes through language use and sometimes when telling to much or confusing an important part of the lie's puzzle. When telling a lie the words becomes more diffuse and the reciever have to put all the puzzle pieces together in his or her head, allways compensating for lost information with suitable pieces to the lie's puzzle. Because people want to trust other people.
But when lying in printed text the reciever can read everything again, and again, and eventually realize that parts of the puzzle doesn't match.
That's why I'm having trouble writing a novel. To write a small lie is hard. But to come up with a totally complete person, character, a perfect story, is not puzzle one get on christmas and finishes before easter. To create a lie that big, one may almost have to live it first. At least at some level. Then one might get some of the pieces for free. Because one can't steal those kinds of pieces, it is just not possible...
So what, should I try to become someone else, in order to be able to write from someone else's perspective without lying?
When wondering around with confusing thoughts and doubts, at the same time filling up the appartement to the sealing with ideas of different lies, I somewhere along the way started notice something...
I have no novel yet. And no job. And no money.
But how do I get to be honest if I am writing a novel? In what way can I show a part of myself without revealing it all? It's easy to lie to someone else's face, I do that all the time. But it's harder to lie in printed texts, because when one lie one allways reveal a part of the truth, sometimes through language use and sometimes when telling to much or confusing an important part of the lie's puzzle. When telling a lie the words becomes more diffuse and the reciever have to put all the puzzle pieces together in his or her head, allways compensating for lost information with suitable pieces to the lie's puzzle. Because people want to trust other people.
But when lying in printed text the reciever can read everything again, and again, and eventually realize that parts of the puzzle doesn't match.
That's why I'm having trouble writing a novel. To write a small lie is hard. But to come up with a totally complete person, character, a perfect story, is not puzzle one get on christmas and finishes before easter. To create a lie that big, one may almost have to live it first. At least at some level. Then one might get some of the pieces for free. Because one can't steal those kinds of pieces, it is just not possible...
So what, should I try to become someone else, in order to be able to write from someone else's perspective without lying?
When wondering around with confusing thoughts and doubts, at the same time filling up the appartement to the sealing with ideas of different lies, I somewhere along the way started notice something...
I have no novel yet. And no job. And no money.
